Tired

Tired of playing around
of holding up walls that shouldn't have to exist
necessarily holding back myself from making potential mistakes and getting knocked down

not been myself lately
maybe thats what's so wearing...besides my dissertation that is
homesick
wishing of the 'freedom' that home holds
people who know me... who i know
who love me and who i love
comfort
no false caring, no false warmth

i want the real thing