like a shinbashira

the shinbashira in a pagoda acts like a tuned mass-damping system conveying the surplus energy in a swaying pagoda to the ground allowing the pagoda to flex and sway without collapsing
the reason i bring this up is i found it quite an eloquent image
steadfast
to have and to hold
which sort of exemplifies certain thoughts
there's a saying: no matter how hot the charcoal gets in your hand you hold onto it until it becomes ashes
...the context being you wanted something so badly that you disregard any other considerations and do whatever it takes to get it
i find this so apt because you make a decision and then you live with it
no half measures, no quitting
especially not important stuff like marriage
I may be prudish on certain things, but that just shows i have strong morals.. which isn't necessarily bad...
...or good.
Though i do think its important to know when to quit, cut your losses and get rid of dead weight

I am what i am, things are what they are
I am my dad, who is a pillar of strength
I am my family always in the background, there when needed
I am my friends who teach me how, and help me, to enjoy life without worrying about the future..too much
I am who I am because of everyone I know
I like who I am