mind's kinda outta there in the nowhere and everywhere
if you know what i mean....
as another one bites the dust I have the next 2hrs to sit and contemplate the why's, what for's and all the other touchy feely stuff that comes to mind when you have a long drive ahead...
i live in my head too much
somebody bring me out into the 'real' world...
Suppose I said
I am on my best behavior
And there are times
I lose my worried mind
Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?
Suppose I said
Colors change for no good reason
And words will go
From poetry to prose
Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?
those questions seem better off not being answered really...
so ill finish off with a little bit of Mika attitude
I got to be wholesome
I coud be loathsome
Guess i'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?
despite the melancholy im actually alright.. better than alright =D
more on KL later where it was all about the adventure and experience...;)
~determined to not worry and to be happy~
uuhh.... what?
NEWSFLASH
LOLITA GOES LOCO!!!
The police believe that China Doll Loli is the alter-ego of law-abiding Didi Ahmad. The authorities are still trying to piece together the events that led to the rampage of today but believe her retreat into another personality to be a result of victimization, of social pressure and unwanted advice. Meanwhile, the carnage continues as all otaku and men succumb to their lolita complexes and join her army for world domination.
Her demands are simple. Surrender or die. America has spearheaded the counter-assault, assuming automatic control of the world's armed forces in normal arrogant fashion. However, the growing anime and manga fanbase around the world is increasing at an exponential rate and some justifiably fear for their lives. Should China Doll Loli's takeover be successful the world as we know it could be altered forever. Political analysts and experts foresee either total anarchy or an extent of dictatorship unknown and not experienced in all history, even challenging American domination in the present.
People are warned to stay away from China Doll Loli a.k.a Didi Ahmad and to be aware of which personality they are approaching if they should meet. China Doll Loli typically has bangs and straight hair, and sports various Lolita looks according to mood. If approached by a goth-lolita please proceed carefully and stay calm. If confronted by a sweet loli do not be alarmed, but do not let your guard down. If she shows signs of rage, it is possible to appease her with chocolate or other confectionery. Didi Ahmad, on the other hand, can also be dangerous but is more likely to stay calm rather than attack. She has a side-parting and usually wears t-shirts and jeans. Authorities warn that she is very unstable, however, and that there is a possibility of other personalities making an appearance.
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:possible headlines should my parents infuriate me tonight beyond reason
Cost of bravery
note to self: you don't always have to be brave =p
I don't really know what to say... i got a haircut.
does the fact that I haven't put up a pic mean something?
It's one of those situations where you sort of knew what you wanted, and when you get it you're not sure if you should've gone for it. There I was, in the chair, given a choice between being conventional and taking a risk. Any girl will understand that 'the chair' and 'the choice' can mean life or death (social that is) and 'the choice' shouldn't be taken lightly. if not, things can quickly become a nightmare. Everyone fears coming out of that chair with regret and with no option but to cry and wear a hat. I have the same fear. But I'm the sort of person who, when someone says don't go for it, I do. Just for the hell of it (except for shaving my head, its not worth the grief I'd get). I'm also not one to keep my hair the same way as it was before just because it's the best way to do it. Convention and boring be damned. I wanted something new and I got it..=S
However, I was strangely calm. Giovanni, my hairstylist, was nice. Didn't chat too much but enough. Gave me his opinion, I gave mine. And then we got down to the business, me only slightly quaking in my boots. There were harrowing moments, but in the end I came out of the ordeal relatively unscathed. Anyway, I've got it out of my system now; no longer will I wonder what I would look like with bangs and can cross that off my To-do list (it had been there for awhile and was really bugging me actually). Not sure if I love it or hate it yet.
Can i pull it off? Will my already fragile ego and self-esteem hold up against criticism? Did being brave pay off?
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No
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Maybe. Possibly. Either way I have to live with it 'til it grows out. Not taking crap from anyone. =p I'm brave and I don't have to be, but I am. The costs this time are debatable, but I'd rather be brave than boring.
China doll cute/Japanese quirky comin' Brunei's way next week.. watch out!
I don't feel like 'Didi' though..... haha
Updating.....
*I went to the MCM Expo and all i got was a plush hat with ears*
....JK.. hehe
i got more than a hat =p
the MCM Expo was... bizaarreee... so many ppl.. so many skimpy/tight outfits...
the smell of hair gel was thick in the air... among other things.. =S ;) haha
45mins was all it took for me to wish i was away from the place.. sooo tired walking around....sooo crowded.. but i persevered! and im glad i did coz i got the most PERFECT birthday gift for my bestest fwen in the woild...
oh .. and i really did get the hat with the pointed ears.. i couldn't help myself. 1 word = KAAWWAAIIII
wat else was kawai was the lil boy in the pic.. joke for those looking for free hugs fr this girl.. i dunno wat it is about these conventions but there sure were loads of kids goin round giving *free hugs*.. since when hugs actually cost sumn elsewhere is beyond me haha i was a victim of a free hug mob... hav a pic of the cheeky buggers but cnt be bothered to put it up =D
it was an interesting experience.. next time.. ill cosplay ;) haha who's with me??!
that was followed by a very crappy week in which my anticipation at turning 22 dissipated somewhat due to a few totally uncalled for comments from certain individuals....
however.. Nadal continues his winning streak in France.. =D hehe lookin oh so good in green..
Celtics vs Lakers in the NBA ..
but anyway.. my birthday was a blast =D.. even tho i celebrated early which kind of took the meaning out of it. it was still FUUUN.. and anyway it was like i was celebrating Tina's birthday haha.. ;) Thanks to everyone who wished me happy birthday haha.. it was surprising how many actually did... this yr's birthday felt good..
i really liked the club The End... its awesome.. ppl if ur in London check it out haha
the company was good.. the shots were good *nyuummyy*.. it was all good =)
now im 22.. and its my actual birthday day.... I was treated to the dulcet tones of my dad's voice over the fone singing the Birthday song haha and got taken to lunch to Mandarin Kitchen in Bayswater with my toks n Lisa.. (ppl if ur in London u gotta check this place out and eat the steamed King Scallops.. nyyaammaann!)
me-time tonite... im due for a good pampering anyway. u gotta love alone time...
i've decided i love surprises.. well good ones.. not bad ones *obviously*
it just adds something extra to the humdrum of everyday life.. =p and when its sumn good.. it just makes u feel soooo good..
I had a good birth-day this yr..
Lookin fwd to making the rest of the yr as awesome as possible.
Making myself get out there n do things i haven't done.. (e.g like the anime convention) =D
and generally enjoying life.
Always smiling... =)