Suspenseful waiting

so its the build-up to my birthday and Eurotrip..
exciting stuff...
and it seems like the fun has already begun with my trip in Newcastle which was surreal but absolutely fantastic! XD
all this excitement has rendered me useless in terms of dissertation work..
not good....
i can only imagine what i'll be like by the end of the eurotrip... hopelessly idle as exhaustion sets in and the buzz fades
with only a weekend to recover and the prospect of two months of really hard work to keep me going...
bleh.. lol
i keep telling myself it'll be worth it...
It better be

"The world is all gates, all opportunities, strings of tension waiting to be plucked"
Ralph Waldo Emerson

looking out the window (credits to Robert Browning)

'I wandered lonely as a cloud...'

dwelling among the untrodden ways...

changing shadows
with every step i take

i contemplate the meeting at night, and the parting of morn
of the 'quiet-colored end of evening' in my hometown

seeing in my mind's eye:

'The grey sea and the long black land;
And the yellow half-moon large and low;
And the startled little waves that leap
In fiery ringlets from their sleep,
...
Then a mile of warm sea-scented beach;
...'

dreaming of a long-awaited meeting of heartbeats
while doors succeed doors
suns and moons wax and wane

I think of how.. 'I will but say what mere friends say,
Or only a thought stronger;
I will hold your hand but as long as all may,
Or so very little longer! '

'and God smiles as he has always smiled;'
and I smile with him.

Rude Awakening

I haven't even begun to read Les Miserables yet, but i know its going to be a good thought-provoking read.

misere: (1) misery (2) utmost poverty, destitution
Les Miserables: the poor, the wretched, the outcasts, the underdogs, the rejected of society and the rebels against society

There exists a condition of social condemnation, artificially creating a human hell within civilization. We continue to live with the degradation of man, the subjection of women and the atrophy of the child. Nowhere is social asphyxia more obvious than the so-called kingdom of unexpected treasures (or whatever spiel they got going on now).
Be seen and be judged. That's how it is.

This malaise is only compounded by the increasingly stifling religiosity of the place.
Today I passed some devout christians in the street attempting to inspire people in their faith, not just by preaching but using rap and song to send out their message. While i do not agree in their message I applaud their modernity.
It forces me to contrast their methods with that of muslims, and what most people see coming from them today. What we see and think of is hate preaching or terrorism or restriction. The demand for obedience rather than demand of faith. This is wrong, no? There seems to be an outdated-ness, an inability or unwillingness to compromise or evolve with the times, which if they really wish to inspire faith in us might be needed. Faith and obedience are two very different things and people should recognize that.

Disclaimer: Just some random thoughts, no harm meant. Provocative but essentially harmless musings. Anyone offended by this.. ur too sensitive =p

Toxic debt

I don't know why we are so inclined to destroy this world.

While i used to think i had no issues with hunting as long as it was legal and not of endangered species, reading the newspaper today about a woman who killed an elephant with a bow and arrow because of a bet kinda disgusts me. The fact that she was praised on hunting websites for it is also quite disgusting. I suppose its the glorification of the whole thing that is abhorrent. I don't really see why people are so proud to have brought any magnificent animal low, though i guess considering how people treat each other it shouldn't really be a surprise. They call it an achievement.... well.... i think there are better things to do in your life than pick on animals for the sake of a bet.

Silver Iterance

What a grand thing, to be loved!
What a grander thing still, to love!
- Victor Hugo

Love comforteth like sunshine after rain. - Shakespeare

One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life:
that word is love. - Sophocles

Lately i've been into poetry. And these quotes express how I'm feeling perfectly.
It's amazing how one phone call can make your day.. make you smile.. make everything alright and bright.
My mom called. My baby sis was actually thinking of ME! Said she misses her kakak Didi, so my mom called me before she went to school. I got to talk to her... and she sounded so cute. She said she misses me.
I miss everyone so much. I love them so much.
L.O.V.E~