i love life

though my blog has been on the melancholy side i am loving life
i'd just like to reaffirm that
i am facing reality.. no more denial..
appreciating my true friends and supporting them and loving them unconditionally

i love to make people smile.. especially those i care about
i'd do anything to make them happy

i'm taking things as they come

i work hard.. play hard
making new friends

could i have done things differently? yeah
do i wish i did? only for some things.. and thats the minority

here's to happiness =)

... oh yeah and world peace =p

Breathe

"can't forget to breathe slow
count fr 1 - 10 with my eyes closed
take it in and gain composure"

it was an emotional end to the (last) week
to cap it, it was the dreaded Valentine's day..
-reversion-
I cried
but not for the reasons you would think
my daydreams took on a life of their own
It's eased part of the feeling of regret that i was beginning to think would stay with me forever
-cathartic-
is it right to ask forgiveness from someone who you have done wrong?
can i forgive myself...?

the sadness remains but in a slightly different form
PMS doesn't help =p
but so far this weekend has proceeded quite well.. a few annoyances here and there...

i wonder if the roots that i have grown have reached their limit n will grow no longer
is my soul set?
are they so intertwined that i will never be able to find my pure self without the other?

nyeh.. i have other immediate concerns to think about..
(like dissertation)
=p

丧魂失魄

memories that are nothing,
yet mean everything.

Those are the hardest to purge from your soul.

Lately I have learned that one should never say 'never'. Especially in a promise.

Also, that no matter how I deceive other people, I have never let go.
Does he know? I don't think so.
making it even more painful every time we wish each other the best.
同一个遗憾。。。always, hopefully not forever, but in all probability this will remain

I have to ingrain into myself the fact that:
"Life is about the journey we have to get through. It only slows us up to look back" (Papers of Eastern Jewel)

drifting in and out of melancholy....
dreaming of snowflakes flirting with my eyelashes...lips... hair...
their utter purity makes me envious