mired in insanity

I am....

a whirlpool of thoughts

a flash flood of emotions

a prediction of stormy weather ahead

*starcrossed*

stuck in static, I move forward in time but the past hounds me and the future intrudes on the present;
conspirators whispers spread maliciousness.
moments of clarity flash like lightening, briefly illuminating but highlighting exactly how dark black can be.
a noxious cloud of uncertainty and doubts suck the optimism out of me.
society, polluted and dragged down by those with money and do nothing with it
education, a catchphrase of the political; in reality an illusion
action, a figment of imagination which people pretend to strive for but never achieve

parents should be re-educated. shown that they need to produce a generation of global citizens not slacker bums. Who will care if we don't?
Society needs to open its eyes and re-evaluate the currently prevailing mores and values. In a situation where modernization is progressing so slowly we might as well be moving backwards in time, they'd rather preserve their holier-than-thou attitude than actually do something good for the economy/country. When everybody knows that those who can make a difference probably have the worst laundry there is.
And when are people going to realize there are bigger problems than this to be concerned about rather than petty scandals. If they are going to concern themselves with insignificance why not put all that misplaced energy to use and actually protest at the appalling state of things. Really, is the knowing who's who, or who's going out with who, more important than world events? Do we really think if something doesn't affect us personally there wont be any consequences or implications for us? Maybe if there were a semblance of a nightlife here, or if we were able to actually go out and do things in the open rather than furtively, people would mind their own business.... on the other hand maybe not considering that is the culture. Either way it is a comment on the systemic closedmindedness and willful ignorance that I'm forced to experience everyday.

*you think your mind is open.. but it isn't*


slowly, i begin to see the flaws in what i once thought was good and perfect. It isn't a good feeling. I work hard to gain respect and trust, but never seem to get close to gaining it. If i were striving for the heavens, I'm starting to realize what is the point? Might as well get a little closer to hell where it's warm and less judgmental. What does it take to prove yourself?
Coz the effort is driving me insane.

love me and i'll love you =p haha