It's now April, and I've been working for a month plus.
I've discovered the little irritants that come with the territory of work, and I like to think I've adjusted pretty well minus a few hiccups here and there.
F1 exhibition was a nightmare that, like all nightmares, passed me by. So many things went wrong, yet I still preferred that kind of work to the everyday humdrum that I now have to deal with.
Berita Harian makes me zone out.
As always my brain refuses to stop working, and I reckon I've got what is called delayed sleep syndrome.
Twitter and Stumble have given me so much interesting stuff to look at (lol) so I'm digging that right now. Expanding my mind, knowledge and viewpoint on the world.
I've had to confront the fact that I'm not the nice person I thought I was... and I've resolved to try harder to be a better person.
I still wish I was that little bit smarter, quicker, friendlier.. whatever.
What this all amounts to is that:
"I like too many things and get all confused and hung-up running from one falling star to another till I drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion"
Jack Kerouac
And I think this state will continue for awhile, so no one should expect so much from me. I shouldn't expect too much from me until I sort that out. Do i want to sort this out? Sort of... not really... I don't know. haha...
I just want to be happy.
i think i'll be happiest at home for now....
Mental spring cleaning {Work In Progress}...stay tuned to see if i'll ever find a goal or purpose in life =p
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