Color me Black

The colour black has never been for scaredy-cats or conformists but rather it has been adopted as the ultimate signature of a fearless creative class of youth…the seminal style uniform of choice for all who embrace the edgy and the agro of nonconformity. Black, you see, is not just a cult. It is a culture.

by Kim Hastreiter

Caught in the Crossfire

caught in a web of my own doing
time running out, while infinity suggests irrelevance and imparts a sense of insignificance

in the words of a poet friend:

You [I] prove that there is a way
To be still while running astray

But the arrogance of my mind continues to deceive
and tells me I'm fine
in a bankruptcy of willpower, I am losing and I really don't care
Yet i can't let anyone down
so i perpetuate the illusion that I'm in control

the fruit of my labors, the instrument of torture
its on my mind, all the time,
stealing sleep, robbing me of my sanity

i need to get out of this mess... fast.

i dream

i dream of being an ass-kicking ninja
fighting evil, doing right

i dream of finishing this dissertation
though it looks like it'll never get done

i dream of a world where there aren't any horrible people
while everyday in little ways you see the worst in humanity

slow down

my brain has come to a juddering halt
not only am i home but it's also puasa.. laziness, procrastination and a general i-don't-give-a-damn attitude has kicked in
i wake up late, i don't feel like work.. so i don't do any, feel like sleeping.. sometimes do, then i eat and wanna stay out with friends
definitely holiday mode except that i'm not on holiday and i need to get my dissertation done
700 words a day is not going to cut it.... well considering i have 28 days left it could work, but that would leave me no time to go over the draft and i'd rather get it done sooner or later
it does not help that the adults are piling on the pressure because they have such high hopes for me and my topic
people heed my advice.. NEVER choose a topic that charts the events happening in the present especially if your relatives have contacts and take an interest...
other than that i've been getting random thoughts like... i don't know why i persist in drinking atleast one can of coke everyday because the coke here in Bru tastes like crap... =S
nyeh... *whine whine whine*
lol.... oh well, its all good and can only get better after i submit the damned thing
all i ask is that it doesn't expose me for the clueless-about-economics person that i am..